...

Because my mind is a stopwatch when I am with you.
And it is so overwhelming that I do not see your face. I only see the minutes running away from us.


Because all we have is time.

Fast paced, suffocating, time.

And it is incredibly difficult to fit all my love for you into something so fickle.

How do I keep you forever?

10,000th.

Sitting here, I often feel like I have no people. 

Like I have been dropped into a place and left alone. 

And the people in this new place are cold as snow. 

But then when I look back, 

It only takes a picture or a call or a text or even a voice mail.

As soon as I get a glimpse of the people behind me.

The quality of the people propping me up. 

The architecture of support around me;

Infinitely stronger than the frigidity before me.

I remember that I am not alone.

I sit here, 

A small girl in an over sized chair.

And that is all you see.

You do not see the 10,000 people I come with, cheering me on, saying;

"You can do this,"

"Forgive yourself,"

"Try again."

Thank God for these 10,000 people :)


Inspired by a line from Maya Angelou's "Our Grandmothers" and my day today.
Thanks Ugose for making me put this up :)