She sat at the train station, watching people and trains go by.
It is because you are this mirror of loss and laughter and fear.
That is why it is so difficult to function.
It is because you are a battle.
Inside you is a battle.
Between fear and grace.
And it will not let you function.
And it makes you wonder what the fight is for.
Why you will not let yourself sink.
Why you will not let yourself feel.
It makes you wonder.
And it makes you cry. And it makes you confused.
You make me want to run.
Thoughts of you, make me want to run.
To no where.
You make me want to run into nothingness.
But not really.
Because there is so much to be experienced.
So much to laugh about.
So much to overcome.
It is such a confusing emotion to feel.
To not know how you feel.
She sat at the train station, watching people and trains go by.
And in that moment, her mind was not her own.
This blog is becoming a confusing diary lol.
